The inbetween

Thoughts are endless, they pass, but they are like breaths: you inhale and exhale out. I imagine the universe being a huge breath, it is exhaling and eventually it will inhale. We (and i mean "we" as in our solar systems, planets, and everything else that makes up the universe), are the result of this exhalation. I have come to understand this by observing my own breath. For my thoughts and i--and everything that makes a human for that matter, is a representation of this happening. That is say, the happening is the exhalation of the universe. Breaths bestow an ablution for our thoughts, the more observant one becomes, the more you see thoughts dissolve.  They are a phenomena, like breaths, they just happen. Observe the happening. You are the in between. Never swayed by the wind but instead always being carried by it. I am the in between.           

Kevin

I am creativity. A free spirit. I am passion. Yearning. Sensuality. I am the sound of roaring laughter. I am taste. The feeling of sand beneath bare feet. I am movement. Vivid colors. I am the urge to paint on an empty canvas. I am boundless imagination. Art. Poetry. I sense. I feel. I am everything I want to be. 

I can do better.

    I read the papers, they were great. I enjoyed everything the students had to say, it was constructive, and it taught me a better strategy for next time. I am grateful for the opportunity. I never thought i was a good speaker, i always stumbled on my words, and say things out of context. I have always wanted to carry myself well; speak the truth and convey it properly. I am swallowed into an insecure trap played by mind. I have never been the smartest cookie; i feel my message is so skewered because of my inability to write or talk. I have big dreams and i am taking small steps, it is a tough road but i am on it. The art is always practice so, with practice i will be better at public speaking. I have a great attitude about what i am involved in on a day-to-day basis but, i do not know if this is the right path. It is great that i shared my personal story but i want to do more. I want to help people find themselves. My major requires so much of me, i wonder if i am capable, if i have the brains to do it. I feel like it do, but insecurity always gets the best of me. I can always do better. . .        

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I just came back from a hike, it was amazing. The day was vibrant and clear, i was able to see the whole city! I love days such as these, it reminds me to be thankful everyday for what we have here on Earth. Life is just to beautiful to waste away on the illnesses, financial strains, or emotional problems. When I'm hiking, i feel one with nature, it's a meditation. The hike could not have been better, i do not remember what the place was called but i know how to get there. I am going to make it a mission to show everyone this place, it truly made my day going up there.  

Today, shall be well.
The sun is out always brings out a new day,
I will be better, i will be stronger, and i will love more.
I can not let anything get me down right now.
Just have to keep on keepin on.

Blah, Blah.

1. We found that because there was too much corruption in the system, so many politicians saw an attrition in their poll numbers.

2. As human beings it is our duty to edify ourselves in order to bring about a more prosperous world.

3. They say that baptism is the best form of ablution but taking a shower is pretty much the equivalent.

4. The elocution of my presentation wasn't flawless but i know it always gets better after each try.  

5. I remember my journey like it was yesterday, it was vivid, and bright; i remember my body was going down the kaleidoscopic writhe. I was immersed in an endless spiral following the light.

6. The robber was running swiftly to out chase the cops; fortunately, the police tackled him to the ground before he could get away. The robber tried  to resist but the officers pinion was to strong.

7. We're all trying to come down to a fair decision about what movie we should watch, but we are all so ambivalent.

8. If we do not look for a solution to what is happening to our world, the kismet of the planet might be in danger.

9. They may think he is crazy, but the man is a cavalier, and he will sit on the hill until they decide to listen.

10. They're still trying to make bills to oppress woman, that needs to be nullified.

I can never find a good name for the blogs i write lol.

Yesterday was awesome! I loved being in front of the class and speaking; it's always been a passion of mine to talk to others about things of that sort. I love informing people.  I don't know if my message will ever reach out to people or inspire them but i am going to try, for the rest of my life. Reflecting upon yesterday i feel that i could have done a better job at conveying my message; i could have structured and organized a better way of expressing myself but i tried and i learned, so it's beautiful i had that opportunity. I will never be the one to try and instill any form of ideas, instead help them develop their own. We do not have rights to dictate anyone's life, to teach is to guide, not to lead. You can only teach someone to help them find their own way of life not teach them your way of life. Thank you for the opportunity, you have no idea how much it meant to me.      

richie havens

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TpfpFKzA4h8

I would have given anything to be at Woodstock. I can't believe your family members where at this event.
My core will always resemble a dirty hippie. hahahaha

People living deeply have no fear of death.

Living deeply with no boundaries,
swimming endlessly towards the sun,
i see my everlasting light,
Abundant, vibrant, and loving,
i give thanks everyday. The Sun: It lives and dies
everyday. The cycle of life is known for it's impermanence,
the moments are vagabonds, yet i settle in this unsettlement.
Every moment is a new adventure, thus i welcome death.

-random thoughts about Anais Nin quote, not poetry just stanzas hahahaha. 

Purging

I couldn't help feeling like i needed to pour my heart out to someone, today. It felt great being able to open to my friend about my past relationship. I'm working on overcoming it, the road is long, but i shall overcome. I feel great, nonetheless. I find myself questioning my logic at times; i feel young. I hear that all the time, "you're just young" Bleh, people swear like they have came to all the answers, no one knows shit, and they're afraid to admit. I for one know that i am young, but it does not mean i naive. I am human and feel emotion at any age. This is why i am selective of who i tell my story too, i am open but to a certain extent. Any who, the great thing is i released everything; ahh, Nina Simone: I'm feeling good.  

women's international day!

Women, you're all such beautiful beings; for decades you've dealt with men's egotistical needs and desires. Today, however, we forget the long hard past that you've all shared and we remember how beautiful and inspiring you guys are. You're mother nature herself: you give birth to life and love like no other. Though many of you aren't mothers yet, you will be, and that sort of motherly love is innate in all of you. I love you. I can't begin to describe how much i take honor in trying to serve each and every one of you everyday. Have a great day! 

http://vimeo.com/invisible/kony2012


I don't know if you've watched this already, but it's pretty hot in our current events. The message is great and i am behind this one percent. This is just another way we make change by spreading videos that raise awareness. I hope you can share this yourself!

Poetry maaan!

The cynics and the dreamers,
concerned at revolutions rubble and heap,
the hesitant and the weary,
the silence of masses asleep

those who wait and watch,
out of fear of asking too much,
too quickly with too much fervor,
for the charlatans to consider our request reasonably…

But is there reason left in a world lacking depth? 
Is there reason in making a request?
Or are we here to request nothing and expect everything?

moved by the insatiable consciousness of struggle,
by the cannibalism of global capitalism
we can neither request nor deny ourselves this revolution

we cannot make demands of manipulators
who measure success with campaign contributions,
and yet contribute nothing to building a more equitable world..

we will no longer validate those whose words and decisions
do nothing to empower the human spirit,
yet do everything to further the illusion of freedom,
To keep us ‘reasonable’ instead of righteously angry,
while we waste away the power of our people
through watered down words and censored dissent…

No.
We are the indignant and irrepressible;
The movers and the shakers.
We will not be reasonable.
We will be revolutionary.
We will deconstruct the tyrannies of feardom
And rise up out of majestic necessity
for an idea whose time has come.

It's been interesting.

        There is sooo much i would like to write about everyday, it's just impossible to get time in. I don't know how it is i am doing what i am doing, but i am. Class is today, can't wait to see you!

sodium lauryl sulfate

    Since the age of six-teen i was researching the benefits of being a vegetarian, meditating on a daily basis, and an organic lifestyle. I've been making healthier decisions since then. The food i eat is actually being digested, low on pesticides, and high in nutritional value; it's a lifestyle worth living because of how much awareness you can cultivate. My research led me to believe that our government seriously wants to do harm to it's citizens. I can't begin to describe how shocked i am about the crap they put in our products. F.D.A, U.S.D.A, D.E.A, etc...it's all corrupted. Why else would corporations like Monsanto use aspartame, a chemical used in diet soda, sweeteners, and is known to cause seizures and deaths.  Sodium lauryl sulfate is also a harmful chemical used in our shampoos, soaps, and toothpastes which may be known to cause breast cancer because of where oestrogen levels are known to be involved in; oestrogen is believed to be mimicked by the sulfate after it is absorbed by the skin.  The products are used because of how cheap they are to produce. It goes to show that in this country if you can save a buck or two, you're personal well being is, pretty much undermined. If you do your research you'll come to find how everything is tied in together: major corporations buying out our system - F.D.A - for their selfish needs. It's hard to get around it, i figure that the place our country is in now, everything is probably fucked with. It's hard to live a completely organic life because we don't have much of a choice. As i mentioned before, it's about how much awareness you can cultivate; so, be as organic as you can be, but remember that you can only do so much.       

0_o

      I had a good day today--can't complain whatsoever. It was an average day, haha, but it was beautiful; I was in awe by the way the sky's colors were blending together with the clouds and the rays of the sun, it was heavenly. I appreciate moments like those. I was running up and down L.A today (AGAIN) delivering paper hearts and talking to some random people about love! Activities like these are what keep me going in life. I realized this while i was running today. I was running up to Mulholland drive through a street named Wrightwood to look at the city at the top of the hill. If you've been through Mulholland then you must know that the roads that lead there are STEEP! It was difficult, i didn't have running shoes, and the roads were so tiny that my friend and i could have been hit by a car. Nevertheless, it was worth it for that one moment. Although there is pain, struggle, and anguish, you must realize that there are necessary in your development; you have to KEEP GOING! I was struggling mid-way up the hill where i had to stop and walk for a bit as i was walking i felt like giving up but i couldn't. I new this feeling very well and i know how feels to overcome it.You have to keep going and appreciate the activities that you are in involved in because that's who we are. Can't complain about that.